I will change...

I am not sure if I can still trust what you say... you value the things your friend say (if he can even be considered a friend) more than our relationship... he have not even meet me and say that I'll be like this and like that and you actually believe him and cause things to happen supposedly like he said and then threaten to do things that I'll regret if I still continue in my ways... you keep saying that you have enough of tolerating me... maybe now its my turn to let you know that I have been the one tolerating... yesterday night you threaten to break saying that you have had enough... I grant your wish, not wanting to see you suffer anymore for my sake then you say that you don't bear to give this relationship up... so what's what? am I being irreasonable here? am I being ridiculous? I think I am just lost... very lost... don't know what to listen to and what not... don't know what you say and mean it and what you don't... you say that you need me but I feel like trash from the way you treat me... I don't know... I am really not sure what to decide and how to decide... can I still decide... I don't even know what is right...