Change....

Expecting changes....
Creating changes...
Fearing changes...
Wanting changes...

Sick and tired of the life tt I used to live... Falling in love with this different life tt I now lead... what is good and what is not... weighing the pros and the cons... my libra scale is failing me... neither either nor or... pressure is coming from sea and shore... transparency is a desired fear... yet not wanting to live in the current fear... maybe its not fear I am living in... severe hesitation is more like it... heard much seen much within a short period of time... a resolute decision is not part of the choice... neither here nor there I can't decide... the mental and emotional separation...internal tug-of-war... suddenly wanna believe tt childhood song... hey sarah sarah watever will be will be... wanna disappear from the circumstance but don wanna disappear from the people around... maybe I am thinking too much... :)