When...

When you suddenly realize that you don't understand...

...on one hand you so want to comprehend...

...on the other hand you don't really want to know...

...the tug-of-war...

...the tug-of-the-heart...

...don't want to return to the vicious cycle...

...maybe its not such a bad idea after all to drop everything and leave...

...but running away is not going to get me anywhere...

...suddenly there is a longing...

...longing for You to fill my entire being...

...that I will not need to be thinking about any other things...